"Daddy I want THAT dress!!"

As a child I remember my parents not being super rich nor poor (it’s hard to be REALLY poor in Denmark) but it wasn’t like we could get new really fancy clothes whenever we wanted, and the most of the toys we got where cheap toys. But you know what? I loved it. I didn’t really asked for anything fancy or brand like a girl on our street did. She was also a child with two siblings (like me) and she was the youngest so of course she was spoiled skinless by her parents. I remember her having all the spice girls Barbie dolls, which were very popular in the 90’s, and some brand toys and she always bragged about how her parents got her this and that and I remember not caring at all about that. We were a simple and humble family, we got presents for Christmas and on our birthdays and we never really felt like we missed something. When I look back I see my childhood as being safe and full of richness in form of loving parents, good friends and a good education so I get angry when I see spoiled kids now.

But it’s not only kids I refer to her, but lolitas as well. I talked to one of my fellow lolitas the other day and I told her about A girls blog I came across, where she regularly post about her new brands she buys. It’s pretty often she does it and I kept on thinking to myself, where the hell did she get THAT kind of money from? Most of it is second hand, but that’s still pretty expensive so I asked her about this girl. She told me that she gets all he clothing and so on paid by her dad. WHAT? How spoiled can this girl be? Does she even KNOW the value of money? But the first thing that came to me was “how will she ever learn how to survive when she moves out to live alone?” my friend just said coldly “well her dad will properly still continue to pay for her lifestyle I guess” and I was choked. Okay so I got a different outlook on money. I came from a family where we really servile our budget to make sure we always had some cash for emergencies, so we were thought that money is something to be spend wisely and not throw out like that.

Nellie Olsen

Now don’t get me wrong. I don’t mind parents getting their kids some nice Lolita stuff, if they have the money for it, as a present for their birthdays or Christmas. But every time the kid opens his/hers mouth? No way! That is just being spoiled and that is NOT okay. Maybe it’s because I get this mental image of the parents being bullied into buying the clothes, by their kids… sort of like Nellie Olsen form “The little house on the prairie”.

Isn’t it far more nice to get your dream clothing as a present for you birthday and Christmas, knowing your parents gave it to you, because they saved money for it? Or by getting a job and saving every penny for “that” dress. I had a little job as a waiter at a bar to earn come cash for a beautiful A.P dress. It was second hand but when I had the money and got the dress shipped to my home I was over happily. I never felt so glad of being able to save up to something this nice and I can’t help but being a little angry over that girls who get everything they want might just end up not being able to enjoy the feeling of getting something you’ve wanted for SO long, if you just get everything by asking for your parents credit card. I mean can’t you remember the FIRST time you actually earned enough to get that first dream dress you had? And that over ecstatic feeling of happiness when the packed arrived? I was like THIS was far better that Christmas and your birthday merged together. That feeling is just priceless and you actually end up feeling you deserved it, after hours and hours of working and so.

I hope you all understand my…rather confusing and very badly written blog entry this time, I just feel like I needed to let a little steam out over those spoiled lolis out there, and I hope you don’t envy them. Trust me, earning your reward is far better than just getting it for doing nothing. SO what If you don’t get a new dress every week? Good things comes to those who are patient and if you patiently save up for your dream clothing you’ll get a much betting feeling of getting your new dress, skirt, acc whatever :D

30 days of anime, day 11

Day 11 - Favourite mech series
Non... really I can't stand Mech series and try to avoid them as best as possible.

30 days of anime, day 10

Day 10 - Favorite slice of life Anime
- I don't really watch any "Slice fo Life" anime's since I think they tend to be rather bland. But I do like Azumanga Daioh :)
and it's really the only S.O.L anime I like.

30 days of anime, day 9

Day 9 - Saddest Anime scene
- omg this! I swear every time I see it i cry. It's just so fucking sad. This is a spoiler from Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood. If you haven't seen the anime or read the manga, don't watch Ö
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPReNg8Xx4M

30 days of anime, day 8

Day 8 - Most epic scene ever
- This scene ;D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TyvRpU0ztFY
It's just the way it's animated taht makes it SO dynamic AND epic :D

30 days of anime, day 7

Day 7 - Favorite Anime couple
- Hmm... I know this is over used but.. Edward and Winry ;D

What's on the other side?

Life is beautiful isn’t it? There’s so much to see and so much to learn when you grow up and one day your old, you look back on your life and you know you had a great run. But I must admit I’m scared. I love being 24 and still have many years before I’ll be six feet under but I can’t help but being somewhat afraid of dying. It’s normal… I know it is but I really that I’ve reached an age where I’m suddenly aware of that I’m not immortal and that one day I’m here anymore. As a kid you didn’t think about that. The worst thing you could experience was when someone didn’t invite you to their birthday party or your friend suddenly said “we’re not friends anymore” and now I worry about death. Trust me it’s not a wonderful thing to worry about. But why AM I so worried? I guess it’s because I’m egocentric in some way… the whole thought of the world not having ME anymore is horrid and it scares me restless. And Restless is what I have become after I realized im not going to be here forever.

But I guess it’s the whole thought of that we don’t know what comes after you die…. Is there a heaven and hell? Do we get reincarnated or is it just… black? I guess I’m afraid that I might miss out on a lot of things… one day 24 and suddenly 87 and dying form old age or shit like that… but I can’t help but feel like it’s just around the next corner my old age. I know it’s not like that but I’m afraid I might end up saying “where did my life go?” and I’m afraid what will happen after death… the whole thought of not having my BF, friends and family at my side is horrifying and I often have a hard time sleeping… I get a scared, my stomach hurts and I start to tremble at the thought of that suddenly it’s all… black… there might not be more to it. Like sleeping but never waking up, you know?

But I try not to let me get bothered by it by looking at my BF, friends and family and be happy for that there’s still MANY years (if everything goes as It should) and that when the time comes I’ll be ready to die and not afraid of it… And it also sort of comforts me to think of that I might be reunited with my entire family and BF (If we’re still together when we get old). It’s hard to look on the bright side of dead but it’s normal to get scared by the things we don’t know about. Like ghost, spirits, aliens and such. It is scary to realize your not a god and can live forever and death is a natural part of life, so the only thing I can do is enjoy what I have now and don’t think of what might happened later. Enjoy every day of your life and then take things as they come. I’m sorry for making such a grim post but I felt like I needed to lighten the burden of this problem to others that my BF. I know some of you might have the same feeling of being scared of the unknown but know this. If you live your life in fear you’re not living at all.

Death is natural part of the amazing and wonderful thing that is life. One human die another is born. Maybe sometime in the future we might be able to die when we want to do it, but up and until then live your life to the fullest, it’s first when your old and dying you realize how important it is not to take this gift for granted.

30 days of anime, day 6

Day 6 - Most annoying Anime character
- Hmm. I'll have to say naru narusegawa from Love Hina. Yes Naru, the female main character who's such a "joy". Why does she annoy me? Well her way of being. Every mistake Keitaro does seems to be on purpos in Naru's world, so she puches him everytime somthing happens that he is not in control of, and to be honost I never found it cute or funny when Naru does it... just annoying and very cruel. Haha.

Lolita shout out #9 and 30 days of anime, day 5

First:
Day 5 - Anime character you feel you are most like (or wish you were)
- wow.. this is hard. I was told by my hubby that I remind him alot about Hitomi Kanzaki from The Vision of Escaflowne haha :)
I don't know why, actually? I would say that if there's a anime female character out there, who likes sweets and cakes, lolita, and is a nerd then that would be me, haha ^^

Secound:
Lately I’ve started looking more and more at Mary Magdalene and I’ve started to sort of enjoy their unique and wonderfully classic design when it comes to lolita. They have a style like none of the other Lolita brands (well perhaps Victorian maiden) and Mary Magdalene really seems to actually try to get their inspiration from the Victorian age. I like that they focus a lot about their floral prints but they also have some really nice solid color dresses it that is more to you likening. I do love floral print but I have a hard time finding something that is really “something” with floral but M.M actually did make quite a lot of clothing that suites my floral print needs just fine. This dress was one I found on their webpage and I must say I adore it.

It is beautiful no doubt about it but it seems really big. I could be that the dress just looks bigger on an Asian girl that a western girl, but the dress looks somewhat clumsy and huge. Although I will say that the shade of green they used is not very common in classic Lolita (mostly its beige, brown, grey, navy blue etc) but this green works amazingly well with the dress and the Lolita genre. It’s not an overpowering green but more… dusty looking which still gives it a earthy feel to it like most colors in classic has. I know it’s not easy to see in this picture but it has a very cute lace op around the bust area and when I look at the dress I get somewhat of a summery felling when looking at it. It’s like this could really go well for almost every season there is, and it’s a JSK so it’s just a matter of using a shirt underneath it when its winter, and maybe a cute cutsew or bar arms when summer? The dress itself is very elegant and not overly decorated like some classic dresses I have seen, it’s like the floral pattern it itself is enough to make the dress look decorative but without being vulgar.

Another dress is this.

It’s also a M.M dress and I must say I sort of have a so-so relationship to it. It’s a beautiful enough dress, but I’ve never really enjoyed the button-row-from-bosom-to-rim look since I think it can make even the pretties dress look grandma-ish. And I don’t really care for the belt either. Sure the dress is nice but those two elements that bother my eyes, and I have a feeling that you can’t remove any of them without ruining the wholeness of the dress. On the other had the dress comes in some beautiful colors and it’s and under bust, plus it’s not over dangly and it’s bottom lace is just beautiful so I guess that If you can live with the buttons and the belt, it’s really a nice dress but I’m such a detail whore that I just can’t handle it. I’ve always had a bad memory when it comes to long button rows, for me it looks great on a jacket and that’s it. I don’t like it on a blouse and defiantly NOT on a dress. I do however love all the colors. All of them are colors I would buy this dress is and I specifically like the purple and brow-ish colors.

But from MM to Baby, yes Baby. No there is no Innocent World this time, haha. They have finally released the long expected Vampire Requiem OP in a limited edition. This print was so popular that baby decided to re-release it again and it was a good choice, like the last time is was on sale it got pretty much ripped down from the shelves and quickly got “sold out” and who can blame people? It’s an amazing print and it now comes in three colors, Vine red, Dark blue and Black. The OP itself is a typical Baby dress. Cute laces and adorable prints. I didn’t really care so much for the blue and red version of it, though the shade of red they used is really beautiful. Instead I chose the black version since it has more of a wholeness to it. I didn’t like they used black rose laces (as in the torso part) on a vine red base color, but in the black version it really fit’s the dress well. I don’t know it they are detachable butt I will say that I could live without the little bows and pearl strings on the skirt section, it’s like the somehow don’t fit in. As far as I know the sleeves can be taken of so that you can choose from either a long sleeved dress or a short sleeved dress.

And here’s another Baby dress. A tartan JSK which comes in a vast array of colors, and I was pretty choked when I saw this since most of babys dresses comes in 3 colors’ MAX but this one comes I a whooping FIVE color choices, Oh my Baby! So bold of you! The dress is adorably cute, like most of baby’s dresses and It seems to be one that could fit a plus size Lolita, although I’m not sure. It DOES have almost full shirring (besides the bow area at the bosom part) but still this could be misleading. If it was a dress that could fit a bigger girl I might actually look into getting this particular dress. It would be great for the summer period and it’s a JSK so I’ll be able to use a shirt underneath it if I wanted to. The tartan print is classic for Baby and who can blame them? Tartan is just one of those patterns that never grow old plus it can be used in pretty much any season possible, the red tartan for Christmas and the pink for summer. For baby this is really old school it’s not overly loaded with frills and such and the tartan print in itself provides a god array of decoration in itself. The minimum usage of laces and bows really flatters the dress and I have a hard time spotting any hit and miss dresses and baby unlike Meta.

But guys, do you have any summer Lolita clothing you wish for, and what will you be doing this summer?

30 days of anime, day 4

Day 4 - Anime you’re ashamed you enjoyed
- Digimon XD
Yeah Digimon! I was so crazed up about it when I was a teenager that I even drew myself as a character from Digimon and created my on digimons. Lol and let me just say that the danish version of Digimon is horrible! Saw it every morning befor going to school, lol.

30 days of anime, day 3

Day 3 - Your Anime crush

- Lol NEVER had one, haha ^^
started watching anime, for real, when I became a little older. And why has a anime crush when I have a real life boyfriend, haha ^^
I will however say that Ren from Fairytale is rather handsome ;D