torsdag den 28. oktober 2010

Status quo.

Sorry guys but this vil be in danish since I have a LOT to write about this time.

Jah der er nået og ske meget på den tid jeg har gået på skolen og en ting er sikkert, tingene er virkelig begyndt at skride frem og jeg er super stolt af mig selv, og min indsats på skolen. Men ikke kun det, vores lære er virkelig begyndt at lære os vanskelige ting. Sidste gangs skulle vi f. eks lave fletbrød, 4-5 og 6 flet som hurtigt viste sig at være okay nemt. 5 flet var klart den sværeste flettemetode, men gud hvor blev vores brød dog flotte! Man skulle pensle dem 3 gange så de fik en utrolig flot shine. Fik 4 og 4 da vi både skulle lave store flet brød og små kuvertbrød. Det er jeg sådan set rimelig stolt af dels fordi jeg er så dårlig til at arbejde med brøddej. Kagedej er meget nemmere for mig at arbejde med. Nu hvor vi snakker om kage dej, så skulle vi lave dansk wiener brød i går, igen hahah :)

Det gik faktisk meget godt og vi skulle lave en del ting med wiener dejen, men det hele startede virkelig kaotisk. Om morgen får vi og vide at vi ikke havde mere margarine, fordi vores leverandøre hade været der for at aflevere varerne klokken 6, men skolen åbner altså først dørene klokken 7, så de var kørt igen for at lever deres vare et andet sted. Det var rimelig irriterende, dels fordi vi sad det første lange stykke tid og bare gloede ud i luften fordi vi intet havde og lave. Men vores lære var hurtigt til at vende situationen. Han fik fat i nogle opskrifter på fuccasia pizza boller som vi skulle lave op og indtil margarinen ankom. Det smagte som sådan okay, men de kunne seriøst godt have brugt mere ost. Men vi fik endelig vores margarine, fordi en lære på skolen (kaldet "Islændingen") var så sød at hente nogle til os fordi vi virkelig have brug for dem. Vi kom endelig i gang og skulle lave utrolig mange ting. Vi skulle lave: En smørkrans, en smørstang, en julestjerne, en julekage, en Dagmar tærte og en kringle.

Det gik faktisk ganske godt denne gang. Jeg formåede at skaffe mig hele 10-taller på en dag for 3 forskellige ting! Jag vi er begyndt at få karakterer for vores kager nu, fordi det giver os et godt drive til at kunne få lavet gode ting. Jeg ved ikke om vi er de bedste af de to grundforløbshold, men jeg har tit fået og vide fra vores lære, at vi SKAL være de bedste, haha! Det er ret komisk fordi sidste gang lavede vi nogle af de flotteste kager af grundforløbsholdene. Men der er sket rigtig meget. Fik lavet min eventyr bog og tophat med H.C Andersen, som virkelig fik ros, folk turde stort set ikke skære i kagen for at spise den, så den ene af vores bagerlærer, Helle, måtte skære den for folk.

Desuden har min kæreste og jeg haft 6 års dag (havde vi her den 10 september) 6 år har vi været sammen, og det har været 6 skønne år. Vi har ligesom så mange andre par haft både op og ned ture, men vi har altid formået at komme igennem selv de værste situationer. Jeg er abnormt stolt af at have været sammen med ham så længe, fordi han er den første og eneste kæreste jeg i mit liv har haft! Det samme gælder for ham også. Det har virkelig været en skøn tid vi har haft sammen, og det er vidunderligt at vi har så meget tilfælles. Da årsdagen kom inviterede jeg ham ud og spise på en ægte italiensk restaurant her i Aalborg, kaldet Felini. Den er simpelthen for skøn! Det er et lille intimt sted med få borde og stole, maden er sublim og stemningen er bare så hyggelig. De spiller italiensk musik i radioen og alle tjenerne snakker italiensk med hinanden, super hyggeligt og jeg kan VARMT anbefale det, skal man da ud og spise i Aalborg. Min kæreste fik en bog han havde ønsket sig længe "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas" af Hunter .S. Thompson. Han var ovenud lykkelig da han fik den. Har kun set filmen, men ikke læst bogen og jeg syntes filmen er super fed. Johnny Depp der spiller Gonzo journalisten, Hunter Thompson, som er total dopes up på narko. Seriøst fed film!

Her den kommende søndag skal vi holde en kombineret Halloween/indflytterfest hvor der kommer nogle få venner for at hygge. Vi har planer om at se Nightmare Befor Christmas og jeg skal sørge for at lave noget lækkert essen. Halloween cupcakes og sandwiches. Glæder mig en del, ved seriøst ikke hvad folk kommer som til festen, men håber da der kommer nogle enkelte som er i udklædning,da jeg selv skal have kostume på. Har endda købt en masse pynt ind til festen og glæder mig til at folk endelig skal se vore lejlighed, efter vi har fået lamper, reoler og hylder op. Desuden har jeg endelig modtaget min Qutieland kjole, den er super skøn og total MMM like!

fredag den 22. oktober 2010

Autumn.

So autumn is finally here in Denmark. It’s cold, it’s wet and it’s windy! This is a typical autumn for Denmark and I must say I hate autumn when it’s like this! But it’s because the wind is really cold. That kind of cold that seems to be stuck in your bones and refuses to leave your body, even thou you are inside a warm room, snuggled up in a warm blanket. Brrr! Hate it. But I do love all the lovely colors all around us when autumn is here. Yellow, red, orange, brown, golden! Autumn is just filled with so many great colors which should inspire people and make them happy. Sadly enough I know a lot of people who gets a winter depression during winter, and it’s not because I’m insensitive, but I just can’t see WHY people get oh so sad and down while winter is upon us? There are so many great things during winter and autumn! I love to snuggle up in my warm duvet, with a nice cup of hot cocoa whilst looking out of the window, seeing the rain and wind outside making utter chaos. Then it’s nice to sit inside a warm and secure home, knowing you don’t have to be out there. Or when in winter you come home to a hot cup of tea and newly baked buns! These are a few joys you only get during the winter months so why be sp depressed? Sure it gets darker, colder and wetter, but hey! It’s just a face and great stuff will come! Christmas is soon here and then new year. So as you can see from what I write I love the winter months and I won’t let myself be beaten by chill winds and dark mornings! Why should I? I have better things to do than to sit around in my apartment, feel sorry for myself and feel like everything is horrid and against me. I myself have had not only one, but three in my family who had a depression back when I was a teenager. My mom, dad and sister had a depression due to various reasons and the only ones who stood without a depression was me and my youngest sister. It was tough being caught between two parents and a sister who would get rather vehement emotional outbreaks out of nowhere! So I promised myself never to give a depression just ONE chance to get me. I know it is impossible but I try. And that is why I won’t be all sad and soggy when it gets colder and darker. But all in all I am one of those who like winter because for me it’s… “Hyggeligt” and Danish word that you can’t translate to English. It reminds a lot like cozy, but it’s not the same. Hygge is something special that us Danes truly love and care for. It’s something really special and something we in Denmark have a lot of during winter. Now that we are talking about winter, I can’t wait for November! There’s so much stuff going on that month. I am going to the Danish J-pop convention, I’ll be celebrating my 24th birthday and there’s a meet-up with the girls form one of the Lolita circles here in DK (short for Denmark)! This year I’ll be going as Kaito from Vocaloid. I might be joining in on the Lolita fashion show and show off my AP dress and I’ll bring my kigurumi, mostly because I don’t want to bring my Yuna (the FF X version) this year. But I can’t wait! I’ll be going with my BF and a very good friend of mine. This is going to be so awesome! But right after my birthday (actually the day after) we will be celebrating Thanksgiving! We don’t do it the same way as Americans do and don’t celebrate is for the same reasons. We just have the party because that is the day when the Thanksgiving football game is! So yes I don’t see a reason to why I should be depressed with so many great upcoming events.

So what are your plans for the upcoming months?

fredag den 15. oktober 2010

Friendship

( ^_^)/ やぁ!

How many of you remember the time when you where kids were you had your very first BFF? I do and her name was Sonja. But due to a stupid episode as pre-teens we went each our own ways. Later on I became BFF with a girl named Kirsten, her sister was in the same class as I and we quickly clicked together. She liked all the same things as I did. Anime, computer games, crafts and cartoons, this was truly a happy period for me and it was also a period where I felt alone and forgotten. I was a teenager and god bullied in school, but thanks to Kirsten I didn’t feel quite alone in a unforgiving world of popularity and backstabbing. She was perhaps one of my best friends back then and we did a lot of stuff together. Went cycling in the forest in our town, watched a lot of movies, had several sleepovers, made our own films with Barbie dolls, yeah this was a great time for me. But again due to some problems we went our separate ways. I was told by a friend that Kirsten saw me as a friend but also as a rival, or that is at least what she got the feeling of, because every time I tried to give her some constructive criticism (Well at least I believed it was) she would get mad, or upset and at the very end it just got too much for me. Then came Carina. One of those girls who got bullied, just like me. We had almost a sisterhood together and she was a girl who you just couldn’t get mad at. She was sweet and a very good friend. Our friendship didn’t end because of an argument but simply because we grew apart from each other. A lot of it was because she was going to high school and I was going to Tech College. But at least we both agreed on ending our friendship on good grounds. But the reason to why I make this post is to thank those girls who has been my BFF’s when I was a child and a teenager, for better or worst those girls friendship made me that woman I am today. But there is a special girl whom I would like to thank. Her name is Ekatarina Gusarova and she is perhaps the best friend a girl will ever get! I love her dearly. We met at a meet-up in a Danish city called Aarhus where we just clicked like that! But not in the same was as me and Kirsten did, no this was different, she was practically me… Just Russian, longhaired and had brown eyes, but she was indeed just like me. Just as crazy and fun loving like a little puppy and as sweet and mild like a kitten! I know this sounds so weird they way I am describing her, but she is just the best friend I’ve ever had. She is that kind of girl where you can talk to her about everything and no matter how tough he shit gets, she is always there for those she like and love. I don’t know how many hours I can spend talking with her about drawing techniques, anime, political stuff, religion, and psychology (we both loved that in school) She is a girl from whom I have learned a lot about drawing and she is perhaps the funniest and the most crazy girl you’ll ever find. Not only that, she an amazing writer and PR’er (role player). We have a dream of going to Russia together, I would love to see her motherland and hear about how she experienced Russia when she lived there and visit her babushka. We both had a vision of us both going to The Animation Workshop (in Viborg) to become cartoon animators and make wonderful cartoons like on the good old days. But sadly enough she moved to Germany (although for another two months she is living in Viborg) and I moved to Aalborg to become a pastry chef. I miss her so much! And every time we talk together we always have a lot of interesting things to talk about! And sadly enough she hasn’t be able to visit us in our new apartment, although she only lives about 1½ away with train. I hope to see her again soon and laugh with her.
check out her maaaaad drawing skills at Apocalyptic Beagle

torsdag den 7. oktober 2010

Finally manage to complete an anime!

~~~ヾ(^∇^)おはよー♪

Today is really a great day. I’ve manage to deliver my project for my teacher, got over 8000Kr back for my deposit (we paid 12.000) I got a lift home by my aunt and, I manage to write me a job application for a confectioner's shop I would like to work for AND I have small vacation new. Today couldn’t possibly become any better. SO when I got home from school I sat down and saw another episode of “Yumeiro Patissiere” which also showed to be the last on! Can’t believe I’ve already seen 50 episodes of that anime! “Yumeiro Patissiere” Is about the clumsy 14 year old Ichigo Amano who wants to become a pastry chef like her grandmother and her dream is slowly fulfilling as she enters St. Mary Academy culinary school where she meets the “Sweet princes” and some “sweet spirits”.

I would first like to say that it is truly a girly girly anime with the huge sparkly eyes and so on, and during the start you would actually believe that it’s going to end up like a classic harem anime, but funny enough it doesn’t which is a BIG plus in my book. But luckily enough a season two has now launched called “Yumeiro Patissiere Professional” yeaaah… not exactly the most creative title but hey if it works, it works. So why do I like this serie? Because it’s about making sweets and desserts which is what I would love to do when I become a pastry chef. The anime has given me so much inspiration and thought on how to make new taste complement each other and how to arrange the cakes. If you like girly-girly-sparkly-warkly anime than this is really one for you. At least see it because of all the wonderful desserts and cakes, even though it’s just an anime they look SO yummy! (ノ´∀`*)ノ Although i must admit there is a huge difference between the into I season 1 and in season two. Season 1 is more cute and lovely whilst season 2 couldn’t make me stop thinking about Lady GaGa when I heard the music and saw the video.

And as a final note I would like to thank Zarsu for this wonderful new template she made for me! It’s supposed to be a mix of steampunk and classic loli since those are some of my favorite stiles in this world. If I could I would build up my entire life around steampunk and classic loli. So thanks Zarsu for this great design!

Sorry for this rather short entry I didn't really have enything to say today. Bear with me. m(_ _)m ゴメンナサイ

torsdag den 30. september 2010

Walking in a winter wonder land.
( ^_^)/ やぁ!

I must admit I am a sucker for Christmas! I really love this season of warmth and hearty behavior unlike other people who see it more like a many eating stressed filled month. For me Christmas is all about my family and my friends. In our family we have one tradition, during one day in the Christmas season the girls of the family (my mom, me my siblings and my step sister) get together for a nice day where we make Christmas decorations (In Denmark we have a candle with the number 1-24 written on them which we lit every day until it reaches the 24th. We don’t celebrate Christmas on the 25th but the night between the 24th and 25th) listen to joyful Christmas music and just sit and have a nice chit chat :D This year I’ll be celebrating Christmas with my BF (in our ned apartment!!!) his mom and perhaps a friend of mine whose mom and her mother’s BF decided to go to Egypt without her. They said that if she wanted to join them in Egypt for Christmas she had to come up with 4000 kr ($750). That is a lot of money for one who hardly has 2000 kr for herself each month. So out of a good heart and because I really like her as the friend she is I asked her to join us in our celebrations ( ^ _ ^)∠☆PAN!

I couldn’t bear the thought of her sitting alone on Christmas day! I mean… How would you feel if your mom and dad suddenly decided to go to a foreign country to celebrate Christmas without you and THEN was told to earn you own cash to be able to join them… I got SO mad when I heard it! (,,#゚Д゚):∴;'・,;`:ゴルァ!!

Later on (mostly during a weekend) we start baking Christmas cookies. We bake them for the people in our family and for the people we like. They get a little box of mixed cookies. But mind you we bake cookies that is very common in Denmark, such as; Vanilla wreaths, Fins brød, Jew caked (I know I know!) and pepper cakes. It’s really one of the best moments during the entire Christmas season for me, to just spend time with those I love and finding them presents I know they’ll like! Well the reason to why I am making this blog is because I am in need of a new winter loli set (Not that I ever had any actually) and I have actually put together a set I really want. It’s a combination of offbrand earmuffs, Qutieland boots and a jacket from F+F.

My dream set!

In my opinion you are perfectly able to make a really cute loli winter outfit for a few cash (well less that if you bought it brand) and it is actually possible to make a nice pair of winter boost for just a few cash. It’s easier to make (in my opinion) a pair of classic loli boot than a sweet loli boot. All you have to do is just look for a pair of boots that goes either to the knee or mid calf in your desired color, just plaster on a few leather bows onto the boots and voila! A nice pair of loli boots for less than 600 Kr ($110). I just want to say thanks to Dorthea (A.K.A Miki-chan) for giving me this awesome tip :D Thank you darling (*^^)^*) ☆Chu!!

SO now that we are talking about outfits for winter and Christmas. What do you have of plans for Christmas and what is you dream outfit for the winter or just dream item? And last but not least, what do you wish for this Christmas?
Until next time we meet (^_-)サヨナラ

Befor we go!
Heres my dream set for

winter Loli

søndag den 26. september 2010

So tired.
~~~ヾ(^∇^)おはよー♪


I’ve been really tired the last couple of months. The entire apartment business has been really hard. Just thinking about having to say “no” to almost every social activity just drained all my “strength” if you can say It like that. BUT! Now everything is over ;D the old apartment is finally off our hands and vi can actually have a social life now. But I must admit that this weekend has mainly contained of sleep, wow and P’n’P so it was REALLY nice to see the old rpg group again, really missed those guys <3>(;_・)

Other good news is that I’ve really found my place in my new school. We have a huge project that is to be shown on the 1 of October (OMG). Okay I’ll try to explain what it’s all about: We are two main course (no not as in the dish) teams who where divided into small groups where we are to bake a cake that makes you think of a famous Danish writer. Our team got H.C Andersen (him who wrote “The Little Mermaid”) and we decided to go for a Tophat and a fairytale book with the letters “Der Var Engang” (Once Upon A Time). I must say I am ever so excited to start on this project! I just can’t wait for our group to get started! This is precisely what I want to be making when I become a pastry chef, desserts, colorful cakes and sweets for everybody whom I love ♪(ノ´∀`*)ノ

But a bad news is that it’s really hard to become a pastry chef here in Denmark, I either have to find me a pastry chef who wants to educate me, or go to Ringsted (which is VERY far away from where I love now, I would have to move there) to attend to their school for pastry chef. The problem is that I and my BF just moved and he just started on the University of Aalborg so we are kind of in a tight spot. And the only person in Aalborg who can train me already has another trainee (a girl in my class). It really makes me sad to know that hardly anyone needs a pastry chef anymore. Everything is industrialized! Nobody hardly wants’ handcrafted sweets anymore! But I still have my hopes up. I will be pleased if I could at least become a baker and afterwards perhaps become a pastry chef. I Really want to be a trainee of Mette Blomsterberg, one of the great Pastry chefs of Denmark, but that is one of those far away dreams ( ̄~ ̄;)

Until next times my cute little darlings (^ _ ^)/~~サヨ

Mette Blomsterberg

onsdag den 8. september 2010

Stressing out!

We are starting to almost see the end of the tunnel when talking about the old aparment. As you guys might know by now me and my BF have been speding two months trying to fix and paint the old aparment, in order to make it liveable again. Wow there was a LOT of mold in it YUCK! And it wasn't even our fault. It's all because of the age of the place. The entire house is from the 1800, crocked and very bad isolated (maine reason for all the mold).
But we are truely starting to get rather desperate in trying to get it all done for the 30'th this month! We still have a little we need to throw out and a load of boxes we need to deliver to our new place! But the problem is that we just can't seem to get the help we need for this task plus we need to either get a new stove or some new plates for it. Everybody seems to be so darn bussy every weekend and we CAN'T drive since we don't have driverslicens (In Denmarks it's VERY expensive) and we don't have our own car... I'm feeling so stressed.
I really hope someone will help us soon... ._.
Sorry for posting a "BAAW life is so tough on me!" post but I kind of needed it :/

fredag den 27. august 2010

Rule of Rose

I myself am a great fan of horror games and especially Japanese horror games (Resident evil, Silent Hill, F.E.A.R, Calling etc) and I can’t believe I didn’t come across this came earlier! Thanks to a friend of mine on Facebook I got to know “Rule Of Ros
e” (ルールオブローズ,) which is a Japanese horror game made by Atlus who I am not familiar with. But they decided to make this game for the PS II and it was published in EU on the 3 of November 2006 but due to some problems in the game the game was NOT released in the UK.

The Story (from wiki since I can’t give a review if I haven’t played the game, duh!)

Players control Jennifer, a young woman who is led to an abandoned mansion by a small boy. She follows the boy into the mansion's attic, and is led to a grave in the courtyard of the mansion. She digs up a coffin with a bloody sack inside it. Four children sneak up on her and pour water on her, before shoving her into it. She passes out, and awakes in an abandoned airship ruled by a cruel group of children known as the Red Crayon Aristocrats. Under the threat of death, Jennifer must appease the Aristocrats by finding an offering for them each month. While doing so, she must piece together clues and recall forgotten memories which will ultimately allow her to escape. Each chapter of the game is introduced with a storybook that loosely describes the characters and the theme that it's based upon, each with a specific time in which it took place.

Jennifer finds and grows close to Brown, a dog who comforts her while she endures the torment inflicted on her by the other children. The sickly Wendy grows jealous, especially as her friend spends more time with the dog. As the game continues, it is revealed after Jennifer was orphaned, she was cared for by Gregory Wilson, an unstable farmer who renamed her Joshua after his dead son. Wendy discovered Jennifer, initially mistaking her for a boy, and eventually convinced her to leave; she helped her escape, but not before taking the gun Gregory owned. The two renewed their promise of "everlasting, true love" and Jennifer's stuffed bear is exchanged for Wendy's brooch. Wendy then took her to the orphanage.

Later in the game, the setting changes from the airship to the orphanage after Jennifer retrieves the stolen teddy bear and is made a member of the Aristocrat club. Frustrated, Wendy forces her to choose between her own life or Brown's and frightened, Jennifer allows Brown to be killed. Afterwards, she slaps Wendy and casts aside her brooch, hating the Aristocrats and herself for being too cowardly to oppose them. After this, Jennifer replaces her as the leader and the tale of the Stray Dog is cast aside as Wendy's lie. Angered by Jennifer's love for Brown, Wendy brings Gregory, whom she trained like a dog to obey her, to the orphanage and the orphans are slaughtered by him. Wendy then commands him to attack Jennifer before leaving.

Halfway through the fight, Brown inexplicably returns to aid her. After Jennifer manages to subdue Gregory, she walks outside and discovers that the boy is actually Wendy in disguise. She confesses that she was wrong, and gives Jennifer the gun that they had stolen from Gregory before he snatches her into the house. After attacking Jennifer, he apologizes to her and commits suicide with the gun.

Reflecting on her previously forgotten memories, Jennifer reveals that after it was discovered she was the lone survivor of not only the orphanage massacre but the airship crash that was thought to have no survivors; the murders were pushed into an obscure corner of the newspaper. She makes peace with her past and vows to remember her friends.

The game has been talked a lot about due to some of the content in the game; animal cruelty, sexual themes, and bloody violence amongst pre-teens which had awaken the fury in some countries. England forbad it to be released since they thought that It might affect many youngsters in the UK and they saw the PEGI rating as to low (16). In my opinion I want to play the game merely for the fact of it being trashed really hard. Many gaming sites has giving it a bad rate based on the game play but still most of them like the story.

The graphic of the game is highly stylized and resembles Silent Hill a lot and to an extent, Resident Evil. I can’t help but seeing Ashley Graham (from Resident Evil 4) in her with the little round face and all. A major theme in the game is the difference between a child's and an adult's way of thinking and how children might treat adults if they were given power over them. Players are helpless to prevent their adult player-character from being bullied by the children. Another is how attachment "to one thing can bring out the worst in people." But all in all this is a game that I would love to play but sadly can’t since my old PS II is no more. I don’t crave the game enough to want to spend money on buying a new PS II merely for the purpose of playing RoR (and I’ve thrown out all my old PS II games, lol)

Picture can be found here

onsdag den 18. august 2010

!!!WARNING!!! Many will find thsi a VERY mean thread, but I mean every word of it. I this means you won't be following my blog anymore I won't be mad, just don't troll me or write a hate comment as an anon for thats just low.

Im sooo fat! Look at me! Fat fat fat! And I weigh 50kg OMG! Isn’t it funny how everybody is obsessed with their, and everybody else’s, weight these days? I know it started back in the 80’s with all those fancy fitness places opening op everywhere, telling you you had to look healthy and slim. Too bad it’s escalated to a whole different level now. Now girls (well in my eyes) are being skinny simply for the cause OF being skinny, there’s no REAL reason for it. It’s not to be healthier or to lower their calories or even to get a normal bloodpreasure... it’s because the fashion industry and everyone affected by it crave that you starve yourself to the rim of death before you can rightfully call yourself beautiful. And this even accurse in the Lolita fashion world as well. I know many girls who hold the Japanese idolisation of the body as their “Thin-spiration” so they too can fit down into JSK with a waist of 65 cm. It’s somewhat sick! I know there are girls out there who are born thin and just can’t gain weight, I was one up and until I turned 20. I used to be a really small and skinny girl who could eat whatever I wanted without gaining so much as a few grams and look at me now! I just have to LOOK at a pie and I gain 5 Kg (just a figure of speech) and now it sickens me to see girls fall into the sick game of “Fashion says” where one step out of the ordinary may cost you other people’s social acceptance of who you are. I get angry when I see girls with anorexia and bulimia trying to blame the world for their troubles and condition. GIRL! You chose to participate in the “fashion says game” and you lost it! So stop making it everybody else’s fault simply because you couldn’t control your urge to look like frigging Kate Moss! It’s not beautiful no matter how much weight you’ll manage to loos you’ll always be ugly, I know this is rough and really bithcy to say but please, have you looked at an anorectic girl lately? No? Well you should. Their skin is unnaturally pale, they got bag under their eyes or petruding eyes, their skin seems older and you can see every friggin bone in their body! I know all of you at there would scream into my head and say “HEY! Those poor girls have a problem they can’t control! SO stop being an ass, bitch” No I won’t. This is not me being butt-hurt over thin girls, this is me being angry with them for letting their body rot away due to some stupid ass dream and a sad try to try and control what little they have left in their lives, their eating habits. I myself had a classmate once who suffered from anorexia and I just couldn’t find her to be pretty in any way and I always wondered what made her adopt this insane though of needing to lose weight at an alarming rate... Mostly it’s a sort of defensive mechanism triggered in the brain when you loos control over your life to make you feel, like mentioned before, that you can still control one thing. I won’t say I’m sorry for writing this for I’m not. A lot of those girls can’t see that they have a eating disorder and mostly they won’t accept people trying to help them, or in their world, hindering them from gaining their dream weight. But one thing I really hate with these kinds of girls are those who write about it to everybody they know, on Twitter, facebook, MySpace, Tumblr you name it. If you do so you don’t just make it your own problem, you make it EVERYBODY'S problem and you pull them into your web of constant despair over being “fat” and that your life sucks! Stop it. If you have to tell everybody you know expect people to comment on your whiny, sad-ass, my-life-is-a-living-hell, because-my-parrents-and-docter-don’t-get-my-problems blog, with some really harsh and maybe even mean comments, but hey that’s life! Stop disrespecting your own body and stop being naive and stupid enough to fall for the “skinny twig girl” trap that the fashion industry is laying out for you to fall right in. You are beautiful as your normal self, not as a thin borderline girl who has zero control over herself or her life. Really girl! Love yourself for who you are because even though you reach your dream weight you will still think you look fat when you see yourself in the mirror. If you can’t accept who you are then how do you expect the world to do it?

Picture can be found here

Thank you Mister Carlin, May you rest in peace!

søndag den 15. august 2010

Liek omg!

(^-^*)/コンチャ!
Before anyone comments on my miss-spelling it's meant to be spelled "liek" and not "like" ;D
Okay, so, Me and my BF finally move into our new apartment and it’s SO great! There’s kids everywhere (who can be noisy at times) but mostly it's a nice a quiet area we live in. It took a while for us to move into the apartment, mostly because we STILL have a few boxes in our old and still got some junk to throw out before we can rightfully say that we have moved out for good. It’s all slowly coming toget
her now and we still wish for new furniture’s. For the first couple of days in our new place we did not have a fridge since my dad wasn’t able to transport it over to our new place, so we had to live on noodles and stuff that wouldn’t go bad outside the fridge. But after 4 days you grew tired of it. Anyway we have begun the work on making the old place look nice, which means; Cleaning, re-painting, repairing and what not so that it will end up looking really neat again. I must say I’m glad we moved away from there. We have had nothing but problems with the old apartment. moisture, mold, cracking paint (because we had a shower in the bedroom and there was poor ventilation even with open windows), a bad window in the bathroom that kept the rain out but weren’t isolated and therefore the heat slipped out during winter, a crooked stove which warmed unevenly, it was all on two floors and, last but not least, the apartment itself was uneven (since it was very old)... Our landlord wasn’t good at getting things orderly when we asked him about it. It took him three years to patch up the holes on the house facade, which gave us mold in our living room. He didn’t fix the radiator which a blacksmith had after we had told our landlord that none of our radiators would warm up a winter. One senses clearly that he only has these three apartment (ours being on of them) so that he can earn a little cash. It lies under the Danish Standards for what one should live in. .. But hey, out of sight out of mind, right? ( ̄- ̄ )

People kept telling us that they just couldn’t understand that he could to let us stay in the apartment, with all the mold that was there. It might easily have made us sick and even caused me to develop my asthma again. We tried many times to keep the worst down, but it came back and now it has left some rather ugly stains on almost every wall in the apartment ガ━━Σ(゚Д゚|||)━━ン!!

Now we started to put the old apartment into a position so that it will hopefully end up being more habitable for the next tenants. The worst thing about it is all the sloppy with the paint work done around the place ... and the funny thing is that our landlord is trained master painter. But at least we’ll hopefully end up making it better than he did. We make sure to use something proper paint, which can reject water and will hold for a couple of years. It’s nice to have an uncle whose father is a master painter too, and a stepdad who was previously vice-chairman of a housing association, so he knows what we should repair and what we shouldn’t repair.

Hopefully we end up getting a super nice apartment at the end. Enough about the old apartment. I just started on Food College here on August 2 and it has been some really good two weeks already. We started with two introductory weeks where we had to try different kinds of workshops. Each intro-team had to make a little bit of food for the final, and huge, intro-buffet for every intro-team where was. When we had eaten and cleaned up after us we were distributed out into different groups which matched what we wanted to become later on. I’m going to be a backer so I’ll be attending a backer team. Can’t wait to start my education as a backer and hopefully, later on, a pastry chef! On Monday I’ll be starting my actual education O(≧∇≦)O

My team will first be getting our schedule on Monday and awarded a contact-teacher who will guide us if we have problems, or can’t show up to class. I've even got me two uniforms and a pair of shoes that I MUST wear every day at school. The teachers aren’t allowed to let us into the bakeries without us wearing our uniforms, due to hygienic reasons, of course. And I must say I really fancy my uniform! I have already learned how to bake the first couple of things. Baguettes, Danish brunsviger cake, cinnamon, buns, Swiss roll and biscuits. I am simply crazy about having to train as a baker! I love being inside the bakeries. I will say that I am sorry for the lack of entries lately. I’ve been super busy with the moving and my education so for that I am sorry

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Until next time darlings, have fun (^ _ ^)/~~サヨナラ


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